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yep
he was the only juggalo in the group though from what i understand
which is probably for the better
i dont want to think what an earth made my a full group of them would have looked like

[He's just not going to say anything about the "I'll ask again later." He'll figure out if feels like telling when it happens.]

yknow now that were talking about cars
i really fucking missed out on my sweet sixteen
and now i cant drive at all
hows a bird dude supposed to handle the pedals when he hasnt got feet
or fit a tail this long into the footwell
or my wings into the front seat
any seat
unless i go sitting sideways or sprawled across the back like a dipshit
i really miss flying cas

I do too. It was always the greatest of the simple joys in my life. I always thought it was a little unfair that God's chosen weren't given the gift as well. Maybe humans would be happier if they could fly.

ngl flying is pretty fucking baller
and im saying that even from a human perspective
in sburb we had dream selves that woke up while we slept and they could fly
though being part bird has definitely added onto it
flying feels like part of how im supposed to move now
not just this neat bonus feature
best i can really do right now is caw and flap uselessly and stare at the sky a bunch

I agree. Flight is such an elegant and relatively unlimited means of movement. Angelic flight has some significant differences from that of birds or other non-cosmic beings, of course, but they're close in many ways. I much prefer it to trying to balance upright on two legs everywhere I go.

I'll admit walking has grown on me, though, over time. But that may be just because of who it's come to be associated with.

if you want to get technical my wings arent actually necessary for it
its more like floating with purpose
but it feels like insult to injury when i cant fly that way and my wings dont do anything to change it you know

[And after the last few days, he can't really disagree on how much better it is to not have to rely on a sense of balance.]

so whats angelic flight like then

It's difficult to explain.
How deep is your understanding of quantum mechanics?

all but nonexistent

Okay.
The easiest way to explain it is that an angel's body exists on dozens different material planes simultaneously and can 'flicker' in and out of them at will and according to need, while humans and other non-cosmic beings are usually firmly anchored to one or two.
Our wings are still physical structures that generate lift and momentum in the same way a bird's do, but by choosing which planes we interact with we can move with much greater efficiency at higher speeds and over incredible distances. Even through time, with tremendous effort.
When I showed you my wings, I was essentially bringing them into close enough alignment with this plane of existence that they could cast shadows. Any closer and I would have risked causing serious damage to your eyes and potentially death.

so what im getting is if you try hard enough you can break physics over your interdimensional angel knee like a geriatric hip on cement
the sight of which is so intense it can literally kill a dude
thats fucked up
but still kind of cool
have you actually time traveled before
do i gotta welcome you to the club
im working on a pamphlet as we speak

I'm not sure I would put it so colorfully, but yes. More or less.
I've traveled through time on a few occasions. It's very difficult.

[ He'd describe it as being like trying to swim through molasses, if he were more prone to metaphor. ]

Are there enough of us here to warrant a club?

ive met five other time travelers so far including you
id say yes

That's strange.
Or maybe it isn't.
If this place truly is caught in a loop of repeating events, there may be some purpose to gathering so many here.

maybe if any of us could still time travel it would
but our powers are all suppressed so its basically useless right now

The ability is suppressed, but not the familiarity with its means and ways.
There may be some quirk of the cycle that one of us is equipped to recognize.

ok but
the thing is that time travel doesnt work the same for everyone
ive talked to enough different people to know that
time travel in my universe relies on stable time loops
my other friend whos gone now could repeat a month back from the beginning but couldnt go back further than that
were not even sure if this is the product of a time thing and not just regular old linear repetition
at most im just fucking frustrated that theres been this many time travelers and we havent been able to control anything about it

Arguably a wider spread of experiences with time travel means a greater chance that one of us will find something familiar.
I don't think there's truly such a thing as coincidences.
But I may be biased.

and i come from a universe predicated on a billion shitty time loops but ive got zero evidence suggesting this place is like that
they cant even guarantee every person gets brought here the right way cas
and what about all the other people who arent time travelers
if the admin really wanted someone who could do anything she should have brought dave not me

There are angels other than myself who are more experienced with time travel across its many permutations, and who are wiser and cleverer. But I am here and they aren't. And you are here, and Dave isn't.
There may be a reason for this. There may be no reason for this.
It's not as useful, but if nothing else I think you understand my struggles in a way that Dave would not. I'm grateful for that.

[Of all the things he expected to see today, this wasn't one of them. But at the same time...]

yeah
he wouldnt

[Dave was never a sprite.]

its kind of hard to say anything for sure when we dont know how they bring us in yet
or why bringing anyone in is happening
weve seen a lot of fucked up stuff but this right here is still a mystery
and im not sure how much of the digging i personally want to do after whats happened

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how are you coping after that anyway

I've seen and been through worse before. I am slightly disoriented, but I will recover.

What about you? You did well, back there. Relaying messages for those being possessed. Escape would have been that much harder, without your help.

really
you go through that and the most you feel is slightly disoriented

[Don't mind him dodging the question.]

Durability is an important trait for a soldier of Heaven to have.

[ A pause, then he adds; ]

The worst part was forgetting things.
Things about what I am.
That's never happened before. It was disconcerting.

[Davesprite is silent for a stretch.]

its happened to me before
not exactly like what happened then
but this place putting thoughts in my head
just a few days in there was all this static that cropped up and fuzzed over everything and made people fade in and out around me
it made me feel like everyone else in norfinbury was fake
this time
after a while
it was hard to remember there was anything else but the eyes
you had a pair of them didnt you

Edited 2017-08-10 13:58 (UTC)

Yes. One for myself, one for Jimmy. It seems like they're going to be permanent additions as well, or at least as permanent as any scars are here.

[It makes sense now that he says it. Marks made, scars remain, and he has to touch at his face and remind himself he's fine now, he's fine, there's nothing there, it doesn't even hurt. He snatches his sunglasses off entirely, staring hard into the overwhelming white of the snow in front of him until his eyes start to burn from dryness. Castiel's cell stood a certain ways away from him, and wherever he moved within it there was the sign of the prophet carved into him in double. He can't feel it now. He can't sense any of them, and he tells himself through a second round of staring at the snow that he can't. He can't. He doesn't know how far any of them are; he doesn't know where Castiel is.]

[He's outside. He's safe.]

[He is, above all, getting tired already of his mind trying to say otherwise.]

how the fuck are you just that ok with it
i dont care how durable youre supposed to be
how do you just shrug it off like it was nothing worse than a case of the flu
like
disoriented
what the actual fuck castiel

[The message comes after a delay, and he has to take effort to type it neatly.]

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